I debated if I was going to pick a word of the year for 2018. I didn't think I was until a few days ago when my word kind of hit me out of nowhere. My word for 2017 was "intentional" and I failed pretty hard with living intentionally if I'm being honest. 2017 was my hardest year personally and it felt like I was mostly trying to survive most of the year. Which I did survive and came out stronger, but I had no time to be intentional.
Honestly, I'm fine with not living up to my word of the year in 2017. My year was hard but the personal growth I gained was worth it. I feel such a sense of self and direction that I didn't have before. A big part of it was leaving a job that was not for me and kept me trapped in a toxic mindset. I finally feel like I'm in a space where I can focus on what I want to accomplish and I've found the perfect word for 2018.
This word has a lot of meaning for me. Literally it means to create more. I want knit, to crochet, to weave, to embroider, to try punch needling. Making things is a creative outlet and something that helps me focus and relax in the evening, instead of mindless scrolling through Facebook and Instagram for the millionth time.
I also want to create a space I love at home. I want to create more content for the blog. I want to create opportunities for growth and learning at work. I want to create more time for friendships. Create a podcast. There's a lot I want to create this year.
I think it mostly boils down to wanting to focus on creating the kind of life I want to lead, to feel in control of my direction and not merely surviving my anxiety and depression. I'm here to create big things in 2018. I can't wait to see what they are.